no more tears

so in 4 weeks my dear friend lost her mother, my best friend lost her aunt and grandfather and last night we said good-bye to our sweet cat. they all were old and ready for heaven where there will be no more suffering but us still here on earth, we are in tears.
last night we knew it was time to give our sweet cat one last kiss and we did this as a family. it was such a special time we were able to have together. my oldest made her a card that we buried with the cat and the youngest insisted on a prayer:)
as i tucked the kids in bed tonight, my youngest started crying again for the cat. i then opened our bible story for the night and it was so perfect! the title... no more tears
it reads...
the lord god will wipe away the tears from all faces. Isaiah 25:8
god knows we all feel sad sometimes. but he also promises that one day he'll take all our tears away. someday,when we get to heaven, we won't feel like crying, we won't get angry, and won't hurt. until then, god says he's with us to comfort us and to take the hurt away. tell him when you feel sad. he's always with you, right by your side.

it's gonna be a good day

today i am....


me:) i have been MIA for about a week because of strep throat:( but i am alive and back to life. i am super tired and while thinking about how i don't want to do anything i can't get a cute story out of my head and at work today i asked my sweet client how things were going and she honestly replied,not real good but oh well, it will be ok:) love her!! so as i reflect about my day and life that cute story needs to be shared:)

a lady wakes up goes to get ready and notices she only has 3 hairs on her head. she says ok! i think I'm gonna braid my hair today! she did and had a great day!
the next day came and she looked in the mirror and said, oh! i have 2 hairs on my head today! i think I'm gonna wear pigtails! she did and had a great day!
and then the next day same thing but she only had 1 hair. she decided to wear a ponytail. she did and had a great day!
so the next day comes and when she got to the mirror she yelled!!! YES!!! i have not one hair on my head!!!! this is great! i don't have to do my hair today!!!

this little story makes me remember to always look at my new day with a smile and tell myself it's gonna be a great day! and as my youngest would say, "no matter what!" :)

Laura Story Blessings (lyrics)

this is what we should remember every day!

the birthday of my new life

today i am............ me! 10 years ago today i found out i was pregnant with my 1st child!!!! this was the 1st day of my new life:) i was an addict! i had been using almost everyday for 7 years:( but the lord blessing me with the gift of a second chance has been the best wake up call ever. the thoughts of not having her come into my life at that perfect moment make me scared. if she never happened i would most likely be dead and would have never been able to experience so many amazing things! thank you god for giving me this amazing gift of life!!!!! and thank you family and friends who have never stopped believing in me. i love you all dearly:)

live your life!

today i am.................... a child taking it alllllllllllllllllllll in:) my day: woke up and ate cereal, got dressed, went to church, ate lunch, planted seeds in the garden, watched some t.v., played with my toys, went through a car wash and ate a snack and drank an icee, went back to church, ate dinner, took a shower, listened to mommy read my bible story, said my prayers and went to bed, not asleep yet i have to sing some because today was a great day. i smiled a lot today, i was around so many people who love me and they know i love them, i love my life and can't wait for a new day everyday cuz i know it's gonna be so great! we must look at everyday like a child to see the real meaning and beauty!!!!! take it alllllllllllllll in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god isn't holding up a perfect picture; he's writing a bigger story

today i am........... me reading a book called, parenting beyond your capacity. i was asked to read this book and talk about the chapter that spoke to me and i had to share! doesn't it drive you crazy to open up a magazine to see a family photo of a clean cut dad in his designer jeans with his tall, thin and tan wife sitting beside him, whom are both looking at their two perfectly well-behaved children while on a picnic under the sun?! i don't know about y'all but yeah right! like that is ever the real picture! and even knowing that we still feel pressure to make it seem like that perfect family is us. for instance i use to be ashamed to let people know the real story behind the fake smiles of our family picture. i thought if people knew i had once made really bad choices and thankfully my 1st child saved me from death but then was left a divorced single mom but finally re-married the man of my dreams, had 1 more child and then our life was completely turned upside down with medical complications and are now living pay check to pay check, if any1 knew that,who would want to be around me? so i would keep it all inside. but then once i did start to stare the ugly in it's face, god showed up and reminded me that we were just like most families out there. even in the bible god tells us of his own chosen people having baggage, they didn't make good choices and they even went through the worst of times. i sometimes wonder if god included hard times and mistakes in the bible to give us hope. a quote from the book is, "it seems like god is more interested in using broken people then he is in creating a better picture." so instead of focusing on that perfect picture, friends, lets focus on that story god is using us for. i also think about what a great demonstration that story can be for the next generations to come. start writing!

recovery

today i am.........


a wife and mother of two boys who is now 18 months sober/clean! my rock bottom was sitting on the floor in the bathroom @ my really really GOOD job shooting drugs into my feet. i received the help i needed and now know that i was saved only by the grace of god! it feels so good to be free from the disease that almost killed me and when i wake up everyday and realize my husband is still there and loves me and that my boys have there mom around to actually be there mom and they love me, well lets just say that's when i receive a "GOD WINK" ;)


even though some days can be so hard, open up those eyes and look for your god wink!