Thursday, January 27, 2011
Walk on the water by Britt Nicole (With lyrics)
so listening to this song tonight made me think of my girls and how i want them to always know these important words and then it made me think about us parents and how do we actually help our kids know these words. having the chance to speak to 2 wise clients of mine today they helped me get a better understanding on how to do that. one said, to know that somethings are just bigger then you and to have faith. love it! and then the other said, to vow to your kids that you Love them NO MATTER WHAT! i think those are some great words of wisdom and know that they have sure helped me! thanks sweet friends!!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
beauty within
today i am..............
me:) i noticed something truly amazing today! I had one of my lovely clients in and we were discussing beauty. she has been on a really healthy road lately and has inspired and motivated me to get in shape and be healthier, but what is radiating out of her more now then ever is her happiness! she is so happy with her life and has made such a huge commitment in making good choices that the happiness literally radiates out of her. it is true beauty.
search deep friends! its there!!!
happy, fun hunting!
me:) i noticed something truly amazing today! I had one of my lovely clients in and we were discussing beauty. she has been on a really healthy road lately and has inspired and motivated me to get in shape and be healthier, but what is radiating out of her more now then ever is her happiness! she is so happy with her life and has made such a huge commitment in making good choices that the happiness literally radiates out of her. it is true beauty.
search deep friends! its there!!!
happy, fun hunting!
Friday, January 21, 2011
becoming fulfilled
today i am.............
a person in recovery. through recovery i found that not only was i addicted to alcohol but addicted to self. i have been on this amazing journey of recovery realizing that the problem has always been me. even though i have a ton of resentments towards family and other people whom I've crossed paths with it was never all their fault it was also mine. i want to be apart of the solution now and see the good in myself and see the good of my disease. through this horrible disease of addiction i have found peace in my life. sounds crazy but i am so thankful for all the ugly i have touched and thankful my heart has broken because knowing now how to look at life like it's my last day i am living is his glory in every step i take. and now i am finally able to be the woman i was made to be. i AM an amazing wife, mother, friend, daughter, sister and i am now noticing that my gift of massage therapy is a ministry and can help open doors for others in emotional pain. i have vowed to do good through all i was born to be! love this life!
a person in recovery. through recovery i found that not only was i addicted to alcohol but addicted to self. i have been on this amazing journey of recovery realizing that the problem has always been me. even though i have a ton of resentments towards family and other people whom I've crossed paths with it was never all their fault it was also mine. i want to be apart of the solution now and see the good in myself and see the good of my disease. through this horrible disease of addiction i have found peace in my life. sounds crazy but i am so thankful for all the ugly i have touched and thankful my heart has broken because knowing now how to look at life like it's my last day i am living is his glory in every step i take. and now i am finally able to be the woman i was made to be. i AM an amazing wife, mother, friend, daughter, sister and i am now noticing that my gift of massage therapy is a ministry and can help open doors for others in emotional pain. i have vowed to do good through all i was born to be! love this life!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
never give up
today i am........
a mother who lost her 18 month old child while he was sleeping. after that morning of finding my precious boy my life changed forever. i tried to hold on to my oldest son and husband for dear life but the knot broke and all i was left with was my faith and 1 son. i thought after my divorce i would never be able to find love again or even have a life full of love but through my sweet baby's death i was able to find true love and even have 2 more children. its also amazing because now my oldest son is blessed to have his mother, father and then step parents as well. so on this roller coaster i discovered that we must persevere through life and when hard times make us fall we must get up with new strength and appreciate trails, enjoy the people that are put there to help us up and never forget to watch for miracles!
a mother who lost her 18 month old child while he was sleeping. after that morning of finding my precious boy my life changed forever. i tried to hold on to my oldest son and husband for dear life but the knot broke and all i was left with was my faith and 1 son. i thought after my divorce i would never be able to find love again or even have a life full of love but through my sweet baby's death i was able to find true love and even have 2 more children. its also amazing because now my oldest son is blessed to have his mother, father and then step parents as well. so on this roller coaster i discovered that we must persevere through life and when hard times make us fall we must get up with new strength and appreciate trails, enjoy the people that are put there to help us up and never forget to watch for miracles!
Friday, January 14, 2011
toxic
today i am....
one who has a toxic father on so many levels. growing up it was the all american dream and then my father decided that his family didn't need him and turned to addiction in many ways. we lost him, but now he is trying to get clean and i now am married with 2 beautiful kids:) i don't really care to hang out with him but know for him and my kids sake they need to have some sort of a relationship. i try to put his toxicity aside and remember there is a sweet, kind heart deep inside and that even if we can't mend the past i can at least open my heart up for the future. we must put the drama aside and find peace!
without peace we are not truly happy:)
one who has a toxic father on so many levels. growing up it was the all american dream and then my father decided that his family didn't need him and turned to addiction in many ways. we lost him, but now he is trying to get clean and i now am married with 2 beautiful kids:) i don't really care to hang out with him but know for him and my kids sake they need to have some sort of a relationship. i try to put his toxicity aside and remember there is a sweet, kind heart deep inside and that even if we can't mend the past i can at least open my heart up for the future. we must put the drama aside and find peace!
without peace we are not truly happy:)
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
4get about it!
i 4got about how crazy the world was when my oldest daughter said, "look mom! it's heaven!"
i 4got about trying to have it all 2gether when my dog laid in the mud after his grooming appt!
i 4got about the loudness of life when i took a 6 mile hike in god's beautiful forest!
i 4got about being mad when as we were waiting for a cop to show up after i rear ended someone my youngest started doing somersaults!
i 4got about everything mean and ugly in life when i sat and looked in my husbands eyes while my kids laughed with joy!
today i am......
wanting everyone to remember the big picture in life! happiness, yes! but what changed it all for me was when a special friend told me in order for me to move on in my recovery i must 4give and 4get! how?! think about god in his big chair talk'n to himself, say'n that amy 10 years ago did this and 2 days ago she did that, ohhh i am so mad @ her!!!! wow! he would be a horrible god so he said in Isaiah that he must 4give and 4get because it's not good 4 him to remember and he would be miserable. so we must not hang on to those things that have happened in our life that are negitive and we must yell, "4get about it!" so we can move on and do something positive and make a differance:)
live well!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
sadness
today i am...............
a mother and wife who @ 5months pregnant started the new year off losing her son.
yet i am still able to give my 2year old all the love i have for her and still be so in love with my strong/understanding husband who has let me lean on him in this time of need. thank god for my faith to be strong enough to know that we will see our beautiful son in heaven one day. i want people to know that even though this happened and it is soooooo hard, i still know my father loves me and i feel as though my husband and i can share our story with someone else that is hurting with the lose of their child. i am so thankful for this moment of my husband and i's string getting shorter and shorter with these knots called life because in return we become closer to each other. i will survive!
a mother and wife who @ 5months pregnant started the new year off losing her son.
yet i am still able to give my 2year old all the love i have for her and still be so in love with my strong/understanding husband who has let me lean on him in this time of need. thank god for my faith to be strong enough to know that we will see our beautiful son in heaven one day. i want people to know that even though this happened and it is soooooo hard, i still know my father loves me and i feel as though my husband and i can share our story with someone else that is hurting with the lose of their child. i am so thankful for this moment of my husband and i's string getting shorter and shorter with these knots called life because in return we become closer to each other. i will survive!
Friday, January 7, 2011
fear
today i am...
a woman who will find out on monday if she has cancer.
i still show amazing encouragement and hope by some how smiling through it and still giving great hugs and love. i know that no matter what it will be ok and i think i need a hawaiian vacation!
this one is very very very dear to my heart and all i can even think to say to this totally brave woman is I LOVE YOU! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
a woman who will find out on monday if she has cancer.
i still show amazing encouragement and hope by some how smiling through it and still giving great hugs and love. i know that no matter what it will be ok and i think i need a hawaiian vacation!
this one is very very very dear to my heart and all i can even think to say to this totally brave woman is I LOVE YOU! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Thursday, January 6, 2011
how it all begins
my name is amy and i am a 30 something year old mother of 2 beautiful girls and wife to my best friend. i am so truly blessed to be here in this moment full of encouragement and hope! i am so blessed that i feel lead to share:)
my life: (short and sweet version)
born to parents that wanted to break vicious cycles but needed to work on themselves 1st, thankfully they are both in really amazing places now. my wonderful/precious mother is remarried to a great man and he is a good father to me. my father also has remarried and she is one of the most amazing people i know! both sides of my families have dealt with abuse in all cases. mostly in drugs and alcohol. my father thankfully is 14 years sober and we have a great relationship.
but as a child i felt abandoned so with the vicious cycles not broken i started walking down paths that lead to dead ends. I started smoking cigarettes @ 12 and was smoking pot by 14 on a daily bases. when i was 17 i stared abusing prescription pain pills which lead to acid and ecstasy. by the time i was 20 it was no big deal to be doing lines of cocaine here or a bump there, even meth on occasion as well as drinking on top of all the drugs.and of course i was very promiscuous because all i wanted was love. and as i was abusing myself i was also abusing my beloved friends and family members.
@ 20 i meet the most beautiful man i had ever seen and wow! was he a sweet talker! i was obviously young and dumb so i feel madly in love with him:) we started dating and i wondered why we could never do anything so i asked if i could have his # and he was like well i'm in work release and can't do anything but see you here @ work. i being young was like oh yeah sure, no prob:) what is that? he said it's kinda like jail but he really didn't do anything wrong he was just @ the wrong place @ the wrong time kinda thing. i still being young understood and still loved him enough that i let him move in with me after he got out of work release(JAIL) so we partied aaaaalot and he was abusive but the numbed state that i was in from the drug/alcohol abuse i never even realized that there was a problem. by now i am 21 and @ my rock bottom. thank god i find out i'm pregnant! but the only thing is is that i was 9 weeks. so the flash backs of those 1st 9 weeks of this child in me were so horrifying i didn't know how this child was going to be ok. so as i'm realizing all the drugs and drinking i had done it hit me i must get clean because this is my second chance @ life! i did it and got clean! but he didn't:( i did end up marrying the sperm donor but only stayed married for a year because the only reason he needed me in the 1st place was to steal my identity, you read right! he put me in thousands of dollars in debt and a lot worse things as well which lead him to prison!!!!
after my precious baby and i left the crazy man i had to start a new life. i went home and changed career's. i am an artist and needed to make a living 4 me and my little one so with my mothers influence i became a hair stylist. things became very normal in our life we even meet the man of my dreams! the man and i became man and wife, he adopted my sweet rose and we then became a family of 4.
and then...
a year after the birth of our child is when we were hit with some major challenges. the baby had to have surgery on her neck in ATL. i then @ 28 had to have a hysterectomy and then 2 other surgeries which didn't go so well and then a 4th to fix somethings. this all happened in 18 months! i lost my job but thankfully the lord knew what he was doing! i have never been one to really listen to the lord so this was a great opportunity for him to get some time with me. all i could do for most of these 18 months was sit. i don't do that well, but man did i get slapped in the face and man did i start listening!!!!
jan. 19 2010 i turned 30 and vowed to make it the year of finding me and finally listening to what i was supposed to do with all this CRAZY i had been through:)
I LISTENED AND.....................
here i am ........
april 2010 i opened a very small salon in my back yard not really with a lot of clients because i had been out for so long but then all of a sudden people were come'n from everywhere to sit in my chair. i was so thankful i just jumped into my faith so then as people came to this HAPPY place they got more and more comfy and then started sharing there struggles and challenges in life. i started learning from them and found myself more encouraged and hopeful so in return i wanted to make a difference and shout to the roof tops that there is hope and so much love out there! but it is up to us to reach down deep and touch the ugly and hear the honesty even though it hurts because we can rise above and be healthy beautiful people inside and out!
and really when i dig deep within it's because all we need is love! we need love for ourselves, spouses, partners, children, friends, co-workers, family and whatever else that should be important:) out of all of these besides ourselves i think of our children and 4 me i was one of those hurting kids that took the hard road so i VOW to stop the vicious crazy train of a cycle and try my best 4 my kids.
so today a lady came into felicity(the salon's name, which means happiness and is my oldest child's middle name, fyi) who was my very 1st client in the chair of hope(april 8th 2010)! her coming today was my conformation of stating this blog finally! thx client!
what this blog will be like.....
the post will be me telling a story of a client who has shared encouragement and hope. such as,
today i am a married stay at home/home schooling mother of 3 with a loving husband who has just lost his job:(
i show encouragement by loving my husband no matter what! waking up everyday with a smile on my face because i know there are others in the world that have it worse. we are all healthy and alive to show how great god is!
thanks 4 reading and hope you continue to read my post and pray you find hope between the lines:)
much peace for you
amy
my life: (short and sweet version)
born to parents that wanted to break vicious cycles but needed to work on themselves 1st, thankfully they are both in really amazing places now. my wonderful/precious mother is remarried to a great man and he is a good father to me. my father also has remarried and she is one of the most amazing people i know! both sides of my families have dealt with abuse in all cases. mostly in drugs and alcohol. my father thankfully is 14 years sober and we have a great relationship.
but as a child i felt abandoned so with the vicious cycles not broken i started walking down paths that lead to dead ends. I started smoking cigarettes @ 12 and was smoking pot by 14 on a daily bases. when i was 17 i stared abusing prescription pain pills which lead to acid and ecstasy. by the time i was 20 it was no big deal to be doing lines of cocaine here or a bump there, even meth on occasion as well as drinking on top of all the drugs.and of course i was very promiscuous because all i wanted was love. and as i was abusing myself i was also abusing my beloved friends and family members.
@ 20 i meet the most beautiful man i had ever seen and wow! was he a sweet talker! i was obviously young and dumb so i feel madly in love with him:) we started dating and i wondered why we could never do anything so i asked if i could have his # and he was like well i'm in work release and can't do anything but see you here @ work. i being young was like oh yeah sure, no prob:) what is that? he said it's kinda like jail but he really didn't do anything wrong he was just @ the wrong place @ the wrong time kinda thing. i still being young understood and still loved him enough that i let him move in with me after he got out of work release(JAIL) so we partied aaaaalot and he was abusive but the numbed state that i was in from the drug/alcohol abuse i never even realized that there was a problem. by now i am 21 and @ my rock bottom. thank god i find out i'm pregnant! but the only thing is is that i was 9 weeks. so the flash backs of those 1st 9 weeks of this child in me were so horrifying i didn't know how this child was going to be ok. so as i'm realizing all the drugs and drinking i had done it hit me i must get clean because this is my second chance @ life! i did it and got clean! but he didn't:( i did end up marrying the sperm donor but only stayed married for a year because the only reason he needed me in the 1st place was to steal my identity, you read right! he put me in thousands of dollars in debt and a lot worse things as well which lead him to prison!!!!
after my precious baby and i left the crazy man i had to start a new life. i went home and changed career's. i am an artist and needed to make a living 4 me and my little one so with my mothers influence i became a hair stylist. things became very normal in our life we even meet the man of my dreams! the man and i became man and wife, he adopted my sweet rose and we then became a family of 4.
and then...
a year after the birth of our child is when we were hit with some major challenges. the baby had to have surgery on her neck in ATL. i then @ 28 had to have a hysterectomy and then 2 other surgeries which didn't go so well and then a 4th to fix somethings. this all happened in 18 months! i lost my job but thankfully the lord knew what he was doing! i have never been one to really listen to the lord so this was a great opportunity for him to get some time with me. all i could do for most of these 18 months was sit. i don't do that well, but man did i get slapped in the face and man did i start listening!!!!
jan. 19 2010 i turned 30 and vowed to make it the year of finding me and finally listening to what i was supposed to do with all this CRAZY i had been through:)
I LISTENED AND.....................
here i am ........
april 2010 i opened a very small salon in my back yard not really with a lot of clients because i had been out for so long but then all of a sudden people were come'n from everywhere to sit in my chair. i was so thankful i just jumped into my faith so then as people came to this HAPPY place they got more and more comfy and then started sharing there struggles and challenges in life. i started learning from them and found myself more encouraged and hopeful so in return i wanted to make a difference and shout to the roof tops that there is hope and so much love out there! but it is up to us to reach down deep and touch the ugly and hear the honesty even though it hurts because we can rise above and be healthy beautiful people inside and out!
and really when i dig deep within it's because all we need is love! we need love for ourselves, spouses, partners, children, friends, co-workers, family and whatever else that should be important:) out of all of these besides ourselves i think of our children and 4 me i was one of those hurting kids that took the hard road so i VOW to stop the vicious crazy train of a cycle and try my best 4 my kids.
so today a lady came into felicity(the salon's name, which means happiness and is my oldest child's middle name, fyi) who was my very 1st client in the chair of hope(april 8th 2010)! her coming today was my conformation of stating this blog finally! thx client!
what this blog will be like.....
the post will be me telling a story of a client who has shared encouragement and hope. such as,
today i am a married stay at home/home schooling mother of 3 with a loving husband who has just lost his job:(
i show encouragement by loving my husband no matter what! waking up everyday with a smile on my face because i know there are others in the world that have it worse. we are all healthy and alive to show how great god is!
thanks 4 reading and hope you continue to read my post and pray you find hope between the lines:)
much peace for you
amy
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About Me
- hope from a chair
- lead to encourage and spread hope because so many have encouraged and shown hopefulness to me:) i am blessed! please visit my 1st post jan 2011 for the whole story on me and this blog!